a conversation in two parts

 

Sometimes, when I get stuck working on a piece, my way of getting unstuck is to meander through my collection of old papers--

maps, journal pages, sheet music, and scraps of old poems I wrote. Last week I found this old poem is my collection. I think I wrote it in 2015 or 2016. You can read the poem in full below the image and then see some close-ups of how I incorporated the words into my mixed media work.

 

 
 

a conversation in two parts

 

i am not going to pretend i don't hear your voice

in my head every night          i sleep

      and your words wrap themselves around me

                  like vines

                               it takes me

                half the morning to find

                        my own words

                              all those unspoken

                                    and 

                                   never-to-be 

                                   spoken,

                                   all the threads 

                                  of interrupted

                                      conversation

                               the clarifications

                        of past miscommunication

             unfurling silently, without mercy

       all the words i never said

                            drift before me

like ghosts, mumbling their regrets

                        ***

what does it matter all the things 

                         left unsaid

     all the broken pieces

           of dreams

                   and

   make-believe    and 

                        beliefs

                             about 

                       what is 

                  meant to be?

  did you forget

to consider

   the possibility

                            that this is

                   what was meant to be-- 

        the loose ends     the story

             that stops mid-sentence

      without resolution or conclusion,

 
 
 

Have a favorite way of getting yourself unstuck with your creative work? Let me know in the comments.

xo,

angela

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